Hello fellow classmates!
I can't believe it's October already! This semester really flew by, next thing you know it will be fall semester of senior year for me... Okay, I'm kind of scaring myself. Anyways, Hallothanksistmas (Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas) is coming! and cold weather woot woot!!!
After reading Professor Flewelling's blog post about Discourse communities and cost affiliation, all that comes to mind is that I can't believe how Steve Jobbs and Bill Gates dropped out of college and made their own billion dollar companies. If I dropped out of college, I honestly do not think I would be as successful as them. I shouldn't doubt myself like that, but sometimes it just seems that the possible is impossible.
In highschool, my mother was really strict on me, I never got to go out with my friends that much and do hood rat things with my friends. It was always just school then dance team, and after dance team practice I would have to drive 45 minutes to get to my studio where I competitively dance. Finally, after that I could have time for homework, but I usually got home around 10:30pm and I would just pass out when I got to my bed. The only thing that I really looked forward to was Friday night football games. In high school, it was kind of hard focusing on academics because a lot of my friends were not really focused as I was on going to college. But once I got to college, EVERYONE is focused on getting their degree, so it made me work extra hard than I did in high school.
Leaving my family back in the Bay Area was one of the hardest endeavors I have ever come across. I remember when everyone had to say goodbye it was a crying fest. Literally, my whole family was sobbing and then before you know it I was sobbing too. I was just so used to being with my family my whole life, and now I have to leave them behind and adventure this knew city BY MYSELF? It was terrifying at first, but once I got to meet friends along the way it got better. After 3 weeks of freedom, I missed my family more and more. I couldn't wait to be with my family again for the holidays. Sometimes it is really tough being at school, while your family is celebrating your sisters 12th birthday party. I hate missing out on things, and the one thing I hate the most is not being able to spend the time with my grandparents while I can... but I know in my heart that they would rather have me in college than be at home taking care of them. My gift to them is graduating college and getting into grad school. Being away from them sucks because my roommates are all from San Diego or LA, so they can just easily drive to see their family... and I am not going to lie I get jealous of them because if my family lived that close I would see them every 2 weeks if I could.
When I got to applying to schools, I applied to be a dance major and a minor in business. My plan was to open up my own dance school and make $$$$.... but come to my surprise I hated the dance major. In dance, I was into jazz, hip-hop, and lyrical. When I came to SDSU and took some classes, we had an 2 hour and 40 minute class of just straight breathing... BREATHING. Like i don't know how to breath. I hated it. The only class that I actually like was the ballet class, but that class started at 9 in the morning and who likes to dance technical ballet with an old lady screaming at you half the time to "straighten your back" when your back is perfectly 90 degrees. (FIX) I am not trying to bash on the dance major, I just think there can be more improvements to to it. I decided to switch my major to Public Health. I always had a passion to become a maternity nurse, and I just loved health. So why not? It was kind of a struggle for me because I changed my major sophomore year and I felt like I was so behind. I had a couple break downs here and there but with some summer classes ya girl is graduating on time!!! (if i continue to do good lol)
Sometimes I think, is college really for me? What if I don't get a job, would I be better starting something off with something on my own? I often think about those rare stories of students dropping out of college or even high school and making billions. Then I realize 1) my mom would kill me if I dropped out and wasted her money and 2) If i dropped out, I honestly would do nothing and just work my life away at a job that I don't even like.

Overall, I believe if you're going in the right direction in life, for instance, going to school, paying your bills on time, and staying healthy your going to be successful in life. If you believe that you can do or create something that is for the good of the people and it will make you tons of mulllla in the end, all power to you! I know midterms are going on right now, so stay strong guys!!!
-Vanessa